New Years Resolutions

I’m feeling very grateful writing this because I’m so much happier than I was this time last year.

This year I think I’ve made peace with myself.

I’ve realised that I really just want to go back to being who I was when I was truly in love with myself and my life. The person who I thought wasn’t good enough, pretty enough or smart enough.

Thing is she was an amazing person and she ruined it by treating herself terribly.

It’s shocks me how many years of my life were ruined by negative self talk and by letting everyone’s opinion get to me.

But I don’t regret going through that season of my life.

I’m grateful for the strength I’ve gained from picking up the pieces of my broken self. I’ve learned how to value real connection with others and not chase after or desire anything superficial.

I’m unlearning all the bad habits I’ve picked up and I hope slowly I will grow into a new version of myself. I don’t know who she is yet.

What I know for certain is she’ll be in a better situation than I am now.

I thought I would share my resolutions for this year with you:

1. Focus on my degree

I’m studying my dream subject and for the first time in my life I see so many opportunities ahead of me. So whenever life gets too overwhelming I want to be reminded of how grateful I am to be in this position. :)

2. Become more disciplined

I’m going to work on my body and mind. I want to get back into yoga and read more. These were two habits that were so important to me but I have let go.

3. Get back into the piano

4. Smile more

Everyday is a genuine gift and I want to enjoy the little things.

Final note :

If this year wasn't the best for you remember everything you lose will be replaced by something even better. Life gets better. It just needs time.